Another thought-provoking post. Thanks. There are such similarities with our drinking and it's been fascinating to watch you go through processing this. I hope you are going to find a life that is preferable without alcohol, though it may take a while to adjust.
I too used to pour out little tiny measures of white wine in order to help control my drinking. This was when drinking alone, when I also could mostly control my intake. Occasionally I drank the whole bottle but often I stuck to my allotted half a bottle. The whole process of drinking, in the last year when I tried so hard to control it, was extremely obsessive and ritualistic. Anybody watching would have likely found it absurd. In the end, it was more painful to keep alcohol in my life than to let go of it. Perhaps that is where you find yourself too.
Another thought-provoking post. Thanks. There are such similarities with our drinking and it's been fascinating to watch you go through processing this. I hope you are going to find a life that is preferable without alcohol, though it may take a while to adjust.
I too used to pour out little tiny measures of white wine in order to help control my drinking. This was when drinking alone, when I also could mostly control my intake. Occasionally I drank the whole bottle but often I stuck to my allotted half a bottle. The whole process of drinking, in the last year when I tried so hard to control it, was extremely obsessive and ritualistic. Anybody watching would have likely found it absurd. In the end, it was more painful to keep alcohol in my life than to let go of it. Perhaps that is where you find yourself too.
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